Worried, Worried....

Nowadays the kids and I are a little worried that in the middle of this month we’re going to live in this country without his presence among us. My hubby got scholarship from the government to continue his study to the Netherlands for approximately 1 year. Actually he had planned his departure tomorrow but since he hasn’t get his visa yet so there isn’t fixed date for it. For us maybe it’s just like blessing in disguise.. we’re having more left days together with him.

Deep in my heart I think I’m the one –not my kids- who’s the worries people at home to faced the days without him. We never had separated family life before. I couldn’t imagine I should fix every small troubled thing at home by myself and about the kids… also I should taking care all 3 of them without too much negative emotion such like snap at them, get angry…. OMG, I tell you they always know for sure how to get on each others nerves.

I’m not sure what I’ll have for those days….So many things crowded on my mind.
Would I get more stressed or would I become a competent mom..
Would all of us just be fine …
Would my hubby be fine to cope with his life there ....
Oh… so many ..

I’m really glad and appreciate if some of you have ever had such an experience like this in the family, and could share with me.

Should I go or not?

Next Monday I’ve a plan to attend a reunion of my architecture class’87. At the beginning I was so excited to meet my old friends-the last time we met at our graduation on ’93-, 15 years ago !! There might be many changes happened to us. I had planned to go by night train (about 8 hours) alone because Monday is work day and the kids have to go to school.

But today, I feel uncertain about that. I feel a bit worried about leaving the kids at home although I’ve a maid, but when I think back deeply, the real reason maybe because I used to travel with my family.
It’s true; I almost never had traveled (far) alone since married. To imagine sitting side by side with a stranger at the train, a little bit weird…
I haven’t made up my decision yet, should I cancelled or maybe I would take my little boy with me :b since he still in K2 so he could ‘absent’ from his class for a day or two to accompany me :)

Have you ever felt like this or experience the same way?